Update

Life moves on in circles to vast to contemplate. I have been living in a small town now for several years, I am still not used to it. I keep dreaming about where I used to live in the country. 

That nice little place in the country , a hide away, a retreat, seems so far away, almost an unreality.

It takes time for me to adjust to reality. to accept what is so, what is true for me.

We now have a roommate , he has been living here for a year and a half. He ran out of options and had to take an early retirement.  It kind of makes things tight here.

I am tired of it but trying to accept gracefully that I offered to help him out. 

Going on about this is useless. I lost my big dog Eddie a couple of years ago. I still think of him...

I still have Kes, she is 12 years old and aging out. I got a new dog two years ago, a mini dachshund. His name is Rocket dog and he is a lot of fun, but very noisy..

I have lost track of a lot of Xanga friends.

We had some snow/ice/freezing rain and things have slowed to a crawl in this small NC town.

Not much other news...

A friend of my husbands just shot and killed himself. He was 55 years old and had suffered with depression for years. Most of his friends had no idea how depressed he was, except for his ex wife and child,,,,, it was a shock, and very sad, of course. We can not know what depths people go to when they can not cope with depression any more. He had offers of help but for some reason it was just beyond him to reach out. there is confusion and sadness, and prayers and hopes that his spirit has finally found peace.. In my opinion he will have to do the soul work in another life anyway, but maybe he can find a way to a peaceful place to reside while his spirit heals..

I do not believe in judging people for doing this, although I really struggle to find compassion as he left a young daughter in her early twenties who will have to live with this the rest of her life..

It makes you think about your own life and doing the best you can for others, and trying to be there for others, but he never reached out to any of his friends.

there is no answer for Why?? It just is the way it is...

Life keeps carrying me away! My Mom needed help and I moved to Florida for a few weeks and forgot all my passwords. I once more will try again.

A friend of ours just killed himself last weekend. He was 55 and more deeply depressed than anyone knew. It caused me to reconsider connections  and making a dent in figuring out how I can get my life on track again.. How to survive, How to thrive, how to socialize and keep friends without tiring..

Every time I am away from the simplest of computer skills, I find new ways of doing things that confuse me Just figuring out how to post pictures is more than I can understand at the moment. this is the shortest of messages until I bruch up on rusty skills.. More Peace More Love...

Ladyhawkseven